Single Status Update
Given that my posts today are often about mental health, I'd like to add another. A label that released a "Grid Resistor" album (Grid Resistor being my musical act in which I use only machine sounds) wrote something like-- it provided a window to an "obsessive and sterile world".
With schizophrenia came a fear of intimacy, I am afraid, of any kind. My music evolved into an often seamless expression of coldness-- solitary, isolationist, and not at all intimate.
For better or worse, humans need contact, and it's taken years of a kind of deprogramming to combat this sense that it is wrong to touch people or be touched. I know this is a trait that is not uncommon in our society, and I feel bad for the many who suffer from it. I am learning that I can't ultimately put nature off-- nature is powerful, and should be respected.